Yes, it's been some time since I had mentioned the pro-choice post I was working on. It's still in the works. There's a lot to cover and I'm a little overwhelmed with all the information.
To be totally honest, the post is very difficult to write, not because of the time I've been spending hunting down actual facts, or because of the overwhelming amount of information and things that need to be covered, but because so much of what the anti-choice side says just makes me sick to my stomach. They just want to control women. They care more about the fetus than anything else. They don't care what happens to the mother, or the fetus once it's born - just that the fetus IS born. After that, they don't care.
Reading some of the sites that claim to show both sides, but are really anti-choice, scares me. It scares me what they're trying to do. It scares me that they're claiming to show both sides, when really they're just pushing the anti-choice agenda even more. It scares me, the claims they make and try to validate. It makes me want to cry, and go into hiding, or get the hell out of this country before it's too late. I feel physically ill thinking about what they want to do.
They're trying to take away choice. They don't care if a woman was raped, or can't afford another child, or would die if a pregnancy continued, or if she just doesn't want a kid. They don't care about all the kids growing up unwanted and unloved. I know all too well what it's like growing up unwanted. They don't care if kids are subjected to that. They seem to have their head in the sand, thinking it hardly happens, despite evidence to the contrary. They seem to think that as soon as an unwanted baby is born, it's suddenly loved and wanted by the mother. No. Fucking no. That doesn't happen. It's fairy tales. Maybe it does change for some women, but it doesn't for all of them, even if that's what they claim. Some have probably just resigned themselves to being stuck.
I feel so many emotions when I see the anti-choice side, none of them good.
I can't remove myself from this emotionally. I wish I could. It would be so much easier to finish the post. I want to finish it, desperately, but I have yet to be able to sit through the lies and propaganda long enough to do much. And unfortunately, I do have to sift through it, because I need to know the other side, too, in order to make my arguments.
They seem to be trying to come off as compassionate, but all I'm getting out of it is condescension, that sort of, "oh, you think you know the facts, but you don't. It's okay. I'll educate you and show you the RIGHT path" thing, like the way I've seen people talked down to because they don't follow Christianity.
That just makes me even angrier, even sicker. It makes me want to just let go of all my control and scream and cry and...I don't even know.
I'm sure this isn't terribly coherent. I'm drained now, from trying to cram as much into one research session as possible. But I wanted to let you all know that I will get that post finished. It's just going to take more time, and I may even have to end up asking for outside help. This is bigger than I thought it would be, and I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew.
(In fact, if any of my readers would like to contribute some information - recent stats in regards to abortion and maternal mortality rates, adoption rates and the number of kids in the system and the ages at which most are adopted/get out of the system, anything - please, let me know. Leave a comment, email me, whatever. You'll be credited, definitely.)